Hi!
I am Sally. Kats alter. I am her protector and the host latley. The problem is that she is missing. Kat is our original and she disappearded a few days ago. I have tried looking for her inside but no luck. It is her birthday next week and most of us feel as it would be unfair if we had to celebrate it without her.
I am new to this kind of thing. As I started to write down and try to discover others not that long ago. So far (a few days) I have found 7 including myself. Some say they have met Charlie and more. So I still have lots of work to do.
But my question is can something happen to the original? Can she just disappear? Will she ever come back?

Hello. I am new to this forum. My name is Jennifer. I have had DID since the age of 9. I have been very secretive as have my many alters of this. We have had so many people judge us negatively because of who we are. We just want to find some friends who understand us and are willing to accept us as is. I am the host but will not be the only one posting on here. I have several alters. They have stacked on over the years. I am 24 years old now. Some of the main alters who will post will be the ones I am in a relationship with and the ones I am closest to. J the joker, Merle Dixon, Pennywise, and another Merle Dixon (he will probably explain himself later) and I are in a polygamous marriage. We have tried relationships with others out here but it has always failed so we rely on each other. Other main ones are Eli, Jason, Oz, Eddie and Handsome Jack. Anyone can feel free to message us. You can request to speak to certain alters. We usually have pretty decent control over who comes out but not all the time mind you. We do not judge and if anyone else has alters and they want to speak to us, feel free. No judgement zone here. We don't have any room to do so.

This is the start of my journey into understanding and managing my BPD.

I am quite analytical (gotta be after 30+ years of trying to work out why I feel what I feel)

“The problem is not the problem. The problem is your attitude about the problem. Do you understand”
― Jack Sparrow

Obviously I'm going to know the answer, it's just I want to hear another persons opinion.
I'm a 16 year old girl and I like fantasizing about things, sometimes it's actually meaningful and sweet, then sometimes it's just dirty sex with this guy I have been dreaming about lately.
I dunno what drives me, but it turns me on so much to be "dominant" over the person, not like "chains and whips" (No, not at ALL) but in a way that the other person can't say "no" to?
Who knows, I'm pretty sure I'm a pervert but I don't really know why or how I became one.
(^-^)

More than ever I'm preoccupied with my appearance.I can spend hours staring at myself in the mirror and whenever I see a reflective surface in public I have to check my reflection in it,then almost involuntarily,perform some sort of grooming or preening ritual involving fixing my hair which I don't particularly need to fix according to others but feel I have to.Every time I'm in public I feel as if I can read the minds' of others and hear everyone constantly insult me.I feel as if the worse i look that day the worse my peers and society in general will treat or value me.It is petrifying for me to leave my home and I've became evermore insular,losing contact with many friends because i feel too ugly to even speak to them. I've been complimented many times on my appearance but i cant accept any comment on how I look other than criticism which I can use to fix the flaw I might not have noticed (usually I have).The disparities between my own perception of myself and my friends' perception of me are huge: I see honestly, the ugliest person in the world who is incredibly overweight and well, they do not.Along with the repeated hair fixing I use many many skincare and grooming products and diet a lot to try and see myself in the way they do even if the version of me they saw is lost in the process: once happy,outgoing and confident.
Bdd has debilitated me
and worryingly i'm becoming more convinced of my own delusions in the sense that I'm struggling to see myself in any other way than I do, even worse is the fact occasionally I justify this obsession to myself as a means of improving myself by scrutinizing myself so harshly,by finding flaws before anyone else can find them,even listening to the voices which are getting louder and louder in public,regardless of what i lose in doing so.But again it feels out of my control.
I would like know if I am not alone, if anyone else is fighting an ugliness only they can see in pursuit of a beauty they can't reach.
Thank you for taking the time to read this.